DeMaNdInG INdEpEnDeNce !!

O sweet Independence, my Independence

Unfurl thy tri-color on my face, let me breathe air of justice and dignity

Let my dreamy eyes and stretched wings enjoy the grandeur of boundlessness

Where I am not told what to do and where every movement I make is not tracked

Countless brave hearts laid their lives, so we sing ‘head held high’ #schoolprayers

But standing on the 68^th Independence day, I still demand my freedom

Who defined that I love to flutter in the kitchen with pearls and riches

I want to flip my own pages and lay my own roads but Can I?

NO!!  Coz there are things to do and roads to travel that I shouldn't

I shouldn't coz there are some cowards lurking around that stalks their prey in their solitude

Some douche-bags who  would confine to their  lazy recliner with disdainful attitude

And shamelessly blame women for adoring risky cloths and high heels

For the rest hypocrite souls for whom wheels of time and zillion other stuffs will evade everything

But I will be the one to face atrocities in succession with my subdued voice

My vindictive heart clinging to the spell of valor will enter abyss of depression

Honestly, no more are ghosts, ghouls, thieves seem dangerous

True danger is so much more insidious

The beast residing in some of those masquerading as friendly spirits

I am not rebellious, just that I need my space to grow

No, do not judge me wrong !!

I am not scared to go out into the killing fields

Or move alone in this world of limiting stereotypes

But I want to question, why the culprits of this heinous crime live free

Who will answer for the little girl who turned into a martyr protecting her honor

For the hurricanes of fear, apprehensions we carry on our shoulders every time we walk alone

For all insecurities we face, for all downtrodden look on us

The betrayal faced by almost every girl, where each part of her body is discussed and debated on

I might have actually failed to capture the trauma that my sisters endure

But giving up in not in my blood, I will fight!! I will fight till it takes all of me

Coz I hope to breakfree to better this world

Coz the pursuit to happiness is to trust in Hope

Coz I believe that there will be a tomorrow with brighter dawn

So constrasting - yet so unique

It all started like a dream to dream on

My racing pulse petrified with the steep climb

But still my perpetual nomadic journey continued

I clambered past the bushes awaiting the visual treat

Rising above the slowly expanding horizon unveiling the untraceable peaks

The first  glance of this austere land from the top got me mesmerized

As if nature carried me in its cradle to show me the world I always wanted to see

Foggy white patches of cloud sparkling, lit up by the sun

Like high tides, dashing against the rock enticing to plunge into its eternity

The beauty with which the hill folds away, covered with mist like a spray

Covered with lush green idli tops interspersed by serpentine roads

Resembling a well laid carpet whose intricacies had been well crafted

I could feel the colours of harmony perfectly blended with peace

Such was my tryst with nature at trekking trip of Munnar

In next few days there I was, at a place crowded, scared

But surely there is a heaven within this scar, bestowing life

So youthful, strong, jovial; as if I had slipped into the flower power age of hippies

It beauty and grandeur dragged me into its reality distortion aura

I found my feet dancing to its tune, passing the gates of unconcerned

At midnight  there I was, drawing a blank with empty glass on the sand

I stood there with cold tide running under my feet

Musing gaze at the place where sea met the moon lit land

And reflecting upon my appetite for adventure and love of ease

The roller coaster bus ride to adventure of water sports

The beautifully laid calm river to the noisy crashing waves

The tranquility of nature to lively partying youth

The morning fresh air to inhaling hookah dreams

The hill side fresh black tea to vodka on sea beach

The first ray of Munnar sun to its last dive in at Goa

I lived every bit of it………..

ItS mY BiRtHdAY !!

A long drive with you

Intentional slowdown to push away the end

Slow romantic to loud beats

We sang every song out of tune

The feel of chilled wind with open windows

Or sip of hot coffee within cozy warm doors

Following the trail of the wavy street lights

Or the waste efforts to get a perfect click

I enjoyed every bit of it

A journey where you don’t feel like stopping,

Endless chatter about life and future

No bumping against harsh reality,

No learning and unlearning on how to live

I came out of the window to face the wind

Thrilling chilled wind as if pierced through my tiny pores

I let the fear go and closed my eyes to feel my selfbeing

As if it was my surreal existence

As if it was some magical reality that exists only for few seconds

I realised a word that sums up my entire life – “Freedom”

And I realised that my smile owns it

Feel the music deep within !!

(These were the lines that came to my mind when I heard it for the first time today. 

Few lines inspired by this music

Listen to this video while reading this....)

Na teherna, na rukna, na thamna, na hichkichana

Azaad panchi ki tarah uddne do

Dariyan ki lehro ki tarah behne do

Dil khol k har lamhe ko jeene lene do mujhe

Ye ujde pattiyon k sarsarhat, ye khile phoolo k aangdayian

 Ye bheed me bhatakti tanhayian, ye khamoshiyon ki gehrayian

Hare ek ehsaas ko mehsus karne do mujhe

Suro k gherayion m doob jane do

Paaw tutne tak naach lene do

Pagal dil ki har ek ek dhadkan ko sunn lene do mujhe

Dard me bhi jee bharke muskurane do

Har darr ko dil se mitane do

duniya bhula k kissipe mar mitne do mujhe

Khamosh Zuba ki labzo ko aankhon se keh lene do mujhe

Pyaar k har ek ek saanso ko mehsus kar lene do mujhe

Zindegi hai ye do pal ki, Jee bhar k jeene lene do mujhe

Its not just a Crush !!

Is it just a crush or its something more??

Why these wandering eyes get stuck only at you

With every indifferent move you make, I grow fonder of you

Even my mind can’t think of anything more than you

I can barely notice anyone else when you are around

Though lost in the crowd, yet you stand out so unique

I get mesmerized when you speak

Man, you got a killing smile

You have the ability to blow off my mind more than a mile

I tried talking to you but the words gets mingled without uttering a word

My head begins to whir and heart pound

You were the best kept secret until I burst

I lack the nerve and I admit

I don’t deny my feelings any longer

Though I play it cool when you are around

The days keep passing, and I am still not a part of you

I know I don’t stand a chance, but I can’t get you out of my head

Everyone says its impossible to buzz your emotionless heart

I die a little every time, to realise its true

I want to be just a friend sharing every moment of yours

But grant my eyes for its part, if you see something more

Have you grown so important for me

Or are you important till the moment I let you go

I am not hiding my emotions but I have other places to be in

But still its not in my control to stop being crazy about you

I know for you it doesn’t matter whether I exist

I won’t claim possession, but neither its a mystery

I expect nothing, I just want you know that you are special

I just want you know that I have fallen for you

P.S : You are super cute

P.P.S : I wait for the day when you would ask me out

iNNocENce THat waST, aNd ShAlt nEvER bE AgaIN !!

Gone are the days when a fluttering butterfly was admirable enough to suffuse a smile

When the aesthetic touch of thy grace made me stare only the beauty laid out in magnificent vistas

When my ingenuous mind surrendered to thy creation without any struggle

When eyes opened veil to morning sky to observe light shattering into golden hue

Ripples of birds’ song broke the morning silence and reached me crossing hills and dales

When the soothing breeze crept over my face and I breathe happiness all over

When I used to watch the consortium of homesick birds amidst the orange edges of the day

Or lie down and form random images out of the idle clouds sailing the sky

When I used to get drenched in the unending columns with open arms and splashed water around
Successfully weaved my paper boat & cherished when it maneuvered its way on vast deep

Spent hours casting imagination with washable sand escaping the curvy white lines of advancing foams

Still laughed when the receding waves washed away my hours of labour into ocean’s cradle

When I used to dream my hand flutter into birds and I trace the invisible magical path

Which kindled the unreachable desire which no fearless yet rationale brain will dare

When nothing unskilled as human passion could build the reality of my dreams

When answer to life was in form of black or white with no shades of grey

No darkness ever overshadowed my thoughts or eyes ever burdened with unshed showers

 Innocence that wast, and shalt never be again - Way beyond bound and price

The kid has disappeared and now a lady has returned in search of the lost kid

No I wasn’t abducted, rather I offered myself and adapted, coz thats the way LIFE MOVES ON...

Its all my soul desires !!

All my soul desires is freedom.............

Freedom from shackles of dreams that have rendered its control to brainless desires

Freedom from the mimicry of life where mindless habits steers our daily chores

Freedom where spirit of truth will give wings to longing devotion

Freedom where vacant crevices of life give way to clear stream of love

Freedom to love someone boundlessly till I breathe happiness all over

Freedom to let go my spirit so wild that even destiny forbids mastering the show

Freedom to let myself loose till I feel the fragments of my ownself

Freedom to plunge into the peaceful water and feel the ripples all within

Freedom to lay carefree on a barren beach under the dead blue sky

Freedom to lay naked admist nature till shadows, begin to fade...